I’m so in love it hurts.

To not know if it’s the same,

To feel this ache when they aren’t near,

But scared to be too close.

What if they run away and hurt me.

To know that they have someone else

Just as I have,

But wanting to spend all my time with them

And just cuddle in their arms,

Kiss them everywhere,

Laugh and joke and laugh some more,

To freeze time and live in it forever

My heart’s speed increasing,

At the thought of you.

I look at photos on my phone

And smile at who you are:

The kindness you radiate,

The warmth I feel when with you.

Those eyes –

Those breathtaking eyes 

That I could stare into forever.

The way you make me feel enough

And love the entirety of my personality –

I feel like I can truly be myself.

I feel like sunshine when I’m with you:

Smiling ear to ear

Butterflies fill my stomach,

And when I hug you –

It’s like I’m safe,

Nothing can hurt me.

I’m so grateful to know you,

Though I do believe that this isn’t our first lifetime meeting –

But even after Lethe and starting anew,

You’re still familiar.

Your soul shines through

And fills my world with light.

I know that I write a lot

And describe you in so many beautiful ways. 

I just think you’re one of the kindest 

And gentlest souls that I’ve ever met. 

When I’m around you, 

It literally feels like my soul is healing.

I have spent a lot of time

Being down on myself.

And yes, part of this is by being

Over-criticized by my family members. 

But being around you

And hearing you say

That you wouldn’t change anything about me.

Those words. 

I have never heard those words spoken to me before – 

Not once.

My entire life 

I’ve been told that I’m too clingy

And too needy,

That I’m not presentable if I don’t, 

I don't know – shave my legs

Or if I don’t wear makeup. 

That I share too much of myself

And who I am 

With people I am close to.

So to meet and get to know

Somebody who says those words to me. 

Who encourages me to be myself. 

When I’m with you I feel seen and safe and free.

My chest is beating so fast:

I have fallen so hard

And given my heart fully,

I have worn it on my sleeve.

And the fear, the anxiety

That maybe you have changed your mind,

Maybe I gave too much

And pushed you away,

Maybe my worry

That I did something wrong

Is what ruins this.

But I’m so scared that I will lose you.

I’m so so so scared-

To go to bed

And not be able to text goodnight – 

To wake up with the sun

And not text good morning.

My eyes leak as I imagine this world

And I pray that it doesn’t happen.

Because then, what do I do?

How do I open my heart again

If this crushes me?

Kingly duels on a screen doth strike and clash,

A glistening man fights a sandy brunette;

What a strange story to view in a flash,

Next to the kind’st person I’ve ever met.

The the strangest thing occurred between us,

A kiss: only one was expected: sure;

So t’wasn’t a shock when there was a buss;

But then there was more from this strange allure.

As if the pull ‘tween the moon and the tide

Pulled me towards you, with a feeling unknown;

Then in your eyes I felt myself decide

To allow happiness within mine own.

Now doth I sit smiling ear to ear,

When’er my heart flutters cause you’re so near.

Thinking of you fills my heart with showers,

Melting in the sun of your beaming gaze;

One foot seeds the growth of wildflowers 

As I move on Gaia’s frozen soil grays.

The falls of myself lays current’s love,

Floating on the gentle petal-lined stream;

A dreamlike state flows as a happy dove,

Awakens to your beautiful eye’s gleam.

Then the moon-bow we see on a night’s full,

A rare and odd thing one can discover;

Stars in the sky envelop our souls’ pull,

Makes me think you’re more than just a lover.

All to say in the beauty of our time,

My fondness for you is love’s paradigm.

Softness around us,
A cloud of pure happiness.
I really love you.

My heart won’t calm down.
From the sight of you, I die
And am born again.

Beguiled crystals, two pairs in a gaze,

Makes Time blind upon thy chestnut brown hue;

With a radiant, amber lining maze,

Flickering fires, my essence burns through.

Iris above sends a message to start:

Echoes reflect from the spherical flame,

To a multifaceted prismic heart;

Seven parts shining around with no tame.

Flutt’ring within, painted ladies amassed,

In Caledonia one, two creeping shown;

The colours spin me Time’s Burr Order past,

And lands me amongst the purple deaf tone.

Then guided towards you, still frozen in place,

We welcome Time now, as we it embrace.

Unexpected –

Invisible threads leading me to you;

A connection beyond heart and body:

The fluttering in my chest,

The need to go far,

The want to be with you.

The world is so beautiful,
Filled with fleeting moments.
Like when we kissed yesterday
And the sun shined in between us
And the light danced around my soul a bit.
Similar to my ring
And how the light reflects off of it,
Splitting into mini balls of light
With the occasional rainbow.
That is the closest imagery I can think of
To describe how it felt.

Laying on your shoulder
And you kissing my head
Literally made my heart explode.

I would equate this feeling to running
In a field of wildflowers 
On a sunny day
While in a long, flowy dress.
And then seeing a dandelion
And making a wish,
Watching as the seeds move through the air.

Looking into your eyes – 
It feels like those little rainbows 
That fill the room
When the sun hits a glass prism 
And reflects everywhere.