I think of who I am, who I am becoming,

What started with lightning at a glance, 

A pull so strong Earth’s orbit would fall,

Has grown into an indescribable love—

A love that layers within itself

Until it becomes subatomic particles,

A love that extends beyond imagination.

I’m not saying that butterflies don’t fill me

At the mere thought of you, that lightning

Doesn’t strike me when I get lost in your eyes—

But that each thing I learn,

Each laugh, each hug, each kiss,

Each day that I spend in this world with you

Allows me to understand what it feels like 

To actually love and be loved Unconditionally—

And I’m not saying it will always be perfect,

That there won’t be any difficulties,

But I know we will prevail in the end.

I feel it and see it and trust in us—

In our connection and love,

In our communication and trust.

I will always choose to love you

Being surrounded by hills, 

Green grass half dried and half alive,

Hundreds of unique plants everywhere,

And you by my side.

A familiarity — a comfort surrounds me

On this mountain; the fact that people 

Stood where I am hundreds or thousands

Of years ago — it is incomprehensible.

Our heads in the clouds, 

Wind whistling around,

My heart beating half from the climb, 

And half from the sight of you.

I feel held in a way I’ve never known,

Free in a way I’ve never felt;

Soaring high above all that was,

And seeing so much more.

A bright blue ocean in the distance,

And a city filled with old and new:

Structures with so much history —

Preserved through time and modernized

Pieces embedded into the land without

Interfering with the integrity, with the beauty.

Volcanic rock lining our path,

Each step, each landing,

My heart grows for you. 

I didn’t even know it was possible:

To love you more than I did; 

For my heart to grow bigger

From your gaze, from the feeling

Of your hand in mine.

And we sit. We stay. We take it all in, together.

The beauty of it all, every part of that day

Brings tears to my eyes. 

Because I didn’t know — 

I didn’t know that much beauty was possible,

That all of that love was within me.

And I love and feel and care a lot —

That’s what is crazy about it. 

The idea that there could be more.

So much more I was capable of feeling.

Your gaze, your care, your aura, your soul,

I love it all, I love all of you.

The good, the bad, the difficult, the easy —

It is a choice to love, 

And it’s one that I will always choose.

Because your laugh, your smile,

The way you see the world, 

The way you think, your instincts,

Your everything.

I will choose it every day because 

You are truly wonderful and beautiful,

Kind and genuine,

And I can’t imagine my life without loving you. 

My heart, which beats above the clouds,

Is Tethered to my soul, yet connected to yours: 

An invisible string linking us

Throughout all of Time and space—

Fragments of our love blossoming:

Jasmines placed among the graves 

of what could have been, what is, and what will be.

It blooms as our connection strengthens,

As our love deepens;

And the golden hue that surrounds us

Is the universe giving me another day with you.

The Sun rose when our eyes first met;

The impact stopped Time 

As the colours filled our souls.

Usually Helios would move to night:

Luna shining the way,

But mid-heartbeat we live –

Frozen amongst the reflective clouds.

Each cycle it grows,

The colours become brighter,

Painted ladies – thistle butterflies

Fill my heart every time I see you.

I researched the greats:

Those well known for poems

Regarding love –

But even they don’t seem to grasp

What I feel towards you.

Dickenson talks of feeling alive,

Revived from the love she felt;

Of never knowing how hungry 

She actually was – without the feeling

She now holds.

Maybe all of them together:

Dickenson, Shakespeare, Poe, 

Shelley, Keats, Whitman,

Browning, every poet 

That has ever written of love,

That has ever thought of love;

Maybe together, they could articulate

The depth of love I feel for you. 

To feel alive is something I lacked,

Never knowing what was missing.

But with each passing day,

Each question answered,

Each piece of your body memorized,

I uncover a new layer of this emotion.

This beautiful and terrifying feeling

Of loving somebody fully and 

Knowing that they love you back.

In a world with so much hate,

With so much pain and sadness;

Feeling this so fully –

Having the colours of a sunrise

Forever imprinted in my heart –

Is something that I will never take for granted. 

I feel so much love –

It fills me up head to toe

And gets stronger and stronger;

Like a lightbulb getting brighter. 

And it continues past the point 

Where you would expect it to stop.

Then the glass starts to crack.

You try and pour out the love in a poetic form:

In words or pictures,

But this time you can’t.

So it keeps getting more intense 

Until it breaks –

That’s when you’re in a ball, crying 

Because the emotions are just too difficult to process.

That love –

And it’s beautiful,

Being able to love as deeply as I do.

But when you’re an empath or just me,

It builds up inside.

Maybe that’s only part of it –

Maybe it’s the fact that I miss them so much. 

That I miss looking into their eyes,

Laying in their arms,

That I miss our legs crossing at night,

And kisses everywhere,

That I miss their aura,

Their energy 

That fills the room with light,

That I miss their hugs,

Their warmth,

Touching their soul when they’re inside me.

And once a week I get these things. 

It is beautiful

And wonderful,

Perfect –

But only once a week.

And during the other days,

It’s just wanting.

Wanting to go back,

Wanting more,

Wishing for it to last longer –

Because when we are together it feels right.

Like the universe makes sense for once.

But we crossed paths for a reason.

A wonderful, beautiful reason.

One that help us both grow

And become the best versions of ourselves.

So as difficult as it can be,

I know that everything that is happening

Is okay –

Is needed.

A message from the universe.

Things you have made me realize that have fully shattered my sense of self (in the best way):

1. It’s okay to take up space

2. ⁠My soul is beautiful

3. ⁠ Who I am is enough

4. ⁠Being sensitive isn’t bad

5. ⁠There’s beauty in my love

I’m not used to somebody treating me the way you treat me.

With so much patience and compassion and love. 

Who tells who I am is enough - 

That I’m perfect as is

And don’t need to change.

Your love makes me feel warm and safe.

Tonight I think of our love as wisteria. 

It is beautiful-

And as it grows, 

It gets bigger 

And extends-

Becoming even more magical and surreal. 

It climbs up buildings

And overcomes challenges.

It lives for a long long time. 

It’s something that inspires love and connection, 

support and safety. 

The freedom to be yourself and live.

I'm trying to think of different ways to describe my emotions, 

My feelings towards you-

Because I want to never run out of beautiful things that remind me of the feelings I get when I think of you. 

It's like finding a key to a lock that you never knew existed. 

Or the feeling you get on a summer night during a thunderstorm- 

When the entire sky is lighting up.

 Or when you're driving in the Midwest

It is a beautiful, clear, warm day, 

And the sky is gigantic. 

You look up and it's like the sky envelops you. 

It just fills you with possibilities. 

Or the taste of a huckleberry 

That you haven't had in years. 

It's just that sweet tart flavour

That you didn't really forget about, 

But re-experiencing it 

Is absolutely wonderful, beautiful and amazing.

I love you,

For as long as a star shines in the sky.