patience

Patience.

I have never been good at that:

To just wait

For a message or a time of day.

The anticipation.

Knowing how amazing it will be

And having to pause,

To wait until it comes.

Minutes feel like hours,

Hours feel like days,

Days feel like a lifetime.

How does one be patient?

How can I be patient?

To be a peace with now;

Without anxiety for what will happen

Or what could happen.

To truly be here

And to enjoy every moment.

How do I do that

When so much of my life has been not great?

And now there is something absolutely wonderful,

But it requires patience,

Waiting,

Planning.

It’s worth it, God is it worth it.

But how do I make it easier?